Last Nite's dream

Today, I woke with a clear vision of last night's dream
I was in a game situation
sought of man hunt
where betrayal strived,
friends feasted on friends
there was mutiny
but amongst a hand-full,
it was alien to kill
I saved a life,
didn't shoot when i had to
at long last,someone saved my life...
...he didnt shoot when he had to
As usual in my dreams,
I knew i will win
I was not set for the game at first
but i got used to the situation
fear was replaced by faith
and I was doing really well....
...then there was my horrible beside alarm!

A song( Midnight Murmurs)

I am writing this song for a reason
and my reason is that reason that renders every reasoning senseless.
where do I start,where do i stop?
I am caught up in questions I do not want to know the answers.
something is wrong
I am fighting a battle i am fraid to win
I dont even wanna pull out
so whose and for whom is this battle?
I close my eyes in sleep but instead a new chapter opens.
The only reality now ,is my nightmares
I used to think I am strong,
used to think i can face it.
I play a role in a grand movie.
My heart burns in confusion;frustration
I want to scream, I need to scream!!
I have forgotten how to care of moments like this
I am not so proud to call this LOVE
If this is Love,then Love is hurt.
Lord I need you.
I need your strength.
I am filled with that which drives a man to kill.
But You said i should wait on You;
trust in you.
Thats where i put my hopes and fears.

Black sea; white shore.

where does it come from?

where does it lead to?

this yearning for Ayanna

her presence brings with her a beauty that follows her on her way out.

Her hair ,a black sea settling on a white shore.

Eyes bold and fragile

....ever been difficult to write?

ever wanting to write and the pen falls off your hand?

I cannot even call her beauty,for i need more words.

I cannot even use more words 'cos i will be lost in them.

so if you want to know what it is

then you are asking for a rare one....

...like the one i had when i watched her last nite sleep in peace.

Edge Of The Pole

I am trying to understand

I push my mind to limits

It hits me as a shock

I am devastated

I thought I knew myself

I thought I knew my heights and limits

So I am at that point

On the edge of the pole

Should I dive into the pool?

Or should I hold on yet to the believe that swimming is not for me?

Edge Of The Pole

I am trying to understand

I push my mind to limits

It hits me as a shock

I am devastated

I thought I knew myself

I thought I knew my heights and limits

Hands Of God

I am losing track of my lines,my virtues,my purpose.
The food gets tasteless by the day.
Its like I am falling with my back turned towards the ground.
I anticipate the smashing of my head on the hard concrete of my fate.
They are slipping away from my fingers.
There's no more life in my grip.
My fist is weak,
My bones yearn for comfort.
But I am still young.
No young death.
Because I see a stronger Hand coming to my rescue one day.
It will find me in this gabbage I live in.
I will be dusted and be cleaned once more.
I wait, I wait, I wait !

Daddy, I Did It Again!

Alright now,

can you tell me what you are up to?

You go here, you go there

Hey!

Make up your mind!

You are playing with lives here!

a soul hurt, is your soul cursed.

So be careful how you push around in your shit.

'cos when the heat is on,

all you will be left with are memories of regret.